My journey to puttaparthi and thereafter

                                              I wonder how did i get to study in puttaparthi........never was i a spiritual guy or the one who believed in god. I was always the one who never had any dreams who was worried for the day meaning .....just live life for the day. I was asked so many times what you want to become when you grow up ... i always used to say and think i will become an engineer (which engineer and what to do after that no idea). If i was asked why i wanted to become an engineer probably i can think only one reason Maths was easy and if i can do well in maths i need not worry about any thing else especially BPC....i liked only maths and i used to think going forward i need not study any other subject. I was always scared of chemistry and always used to wonder how to remember so many formulas and how to balance them its so tough....how H2 +1/2 O2 will give H2O ? what did i knew that there was so much in store for me in the future about these chemicals and to balance these equations. Recently i read a book by name only love is real and in that there is something which is very much related to the above mentioned situation "things which one fears in life will always be after him until he overcomes the fear". 

                                                   After my 10th class it happened that i was just concentrating only on to write the Eamcet exam and clear the exam and become an engineer.I left all my close friends and all those lovely days of enjoying the snacks at the bakery and playing football with the cricket ball in the play ground.The carefree life for 10 years had to come to an end. The notorious student for the teachers and big bully for all the girls in the class had to go off and come another student whose only one dream was to become an engineer even my parents wanted me to study hard and become a big person in life. Asusal parents was the best for there kids....i got a good percentage in my 10th class so i got some concession and joined the Gautami College in those days they were known for there discipline and studies. I still remember those days very clearly where we were not allowed to wear jeans and t-shrits to college.Day used to start for me at 5 in the morning my mom used to wake me up and tell me study from the day one.In the first year intermedaite only i had joined the course for Eamcet. I was preparing for the exam for life but my poor mother used to wake up and give me company for my studies. Apart from this i used to get tests by my father he used to come to my room and do the sudden checks whether i am reading or not if not then he used to take me to bathroom and make me wash my face, he used to believe in the principle that a person will loose his sleep if washes his face or walks for some time.But some times i was damn smart listening to there footsteps i used to pretend to sit straight and act as if i am studying. 

       

                                                           I used to go to college at 8 in the morning and go to the coaching centre at 2 in the afternoon straight from the college and then reach home 6 in the evening. I dont know how i had walked daily 8kms daily from college to home and back from coaching centre to college.My father and mother were stretching so much financially to make my studies better that i never felt like asking for a bicycle.I never used to tell them even i had to walk this much or go through a bit struggle in life even though they knew everything. I used to believe in the principle that we never get anything free of cost we have to give sweat or blood to achieve or to get something in life. If life is going on this way at one end i was doing well in studies scoring around 80% in the 1st year also doing well at the coaching centre. Slowly the 2 nd year started i was doing well here as well used to get good grades at the college also in the Eamcet tests conducted at the college. There is this sudden turn in my life in the month of december and january 1998 my parents went to my home town,  they went to do a pooja for 1 month( chanting the name of god 24*7 for 31 days by offering rice grains at the photos of swami then cooking the rice and feeding all the people of the village for the 31 days). I got a holidays for 7 days during this time so my parents insisted me to join the pooja so i was forced to go and join that time........ even though i had gone to join the pooja i was playing cricket in the morning with out my fathers notice( he was like a hitler to me at that time) and do the pooja in the evening i use to believe in the principle of serving and not doing the bhajans(lip chanting).  After this pooja the main twist was yet to unfold i had to join my parents to puttaparthi since they wanted to have swami's darshan after the pooja.I went with them to puttaparthi and swami did not look at us on the first day and asusal everybody was dissappointed but i was there with a difference who was feeling that i did not do anything and will not loose anyting as well. 

                                        

                                                          The day came it was on February 26th 1998 all of us were sitting for swami's darshan and then suddenly swami see's us and enquires about all of us and tells us that he is very happy with us and said he will give padanamaskar to all of us and we get ready for the same. I was preparing to ask swami that i should get a seat in engineering and should take care of me. Swami as usual grants padanamaskar to everybody and comes infront of me and instead of asking the seat for engineering i asked for a seat in his institute and swami with his usual smile and lots of love told to sitdown. I once realised what i had to ask and what i had asked for....."when something is destined to happen how much ever a person may try to prevent it will be never be stopped until the will of god is there". Then once i came back to the room then my mind for the seat of engineering had gone and only one thought was there to get seat in swami's institute. I had come back to hyderabad and got back to my 2 nd year exams and did pretty well in them.But, my concentration from the Eamcet exams had gone of and there was this new goal that i should get seat in swami's institute had come. I had written the Eamcet exam and i got a rank of 7000 but i did not wait for this as i already applied for B.Sc in puttaparthi with the help of my brother who was already doing B.Com there. I went for the entrance exam from hyderabad all alone. This was the first trip where i was travelling all by myslef and when i saw the preparation of the students there i was sure that i am the only one who did not prepare for anything. I was very casual. I was destined to get through the exams inspite of not preparing for the exams and also through with the interview.After all the tests they announced the results and my name was among the selected ones was very happy seeing the results.

                                                        The decision of going for Engineering or joining the swami's institute was there infront of me it was very hard to take a decision since my mother was very worried that after putting so much effort i should not leave this opportunity. I took a decision of joining swami's institute and if any body ask's me why i have taken this decision i dont know for this day how i made this choice. I had taken it and believed that only few are destined to have the privilage of studying in god's presence.

When things are there in the hand people dont realise the value of it but once it is lost they feel for it so ......its that things are always there infront of us its only we have to realise and open our eyes and make the right decisions......